Recently I worked an auction for a friend. As I was moving 'won' items around tables it dawned on me. 10 pm at night. Mind racing with organizing, multi-tasking, being my "normal" energetic self. No brain issues. No exhaustion, fog, loss of clarity, loss of words, dizziness. I literally- amid the craziness of a big auction- leaned on the table with both hands, closed my eyes and thanked god. I am so happy to be here.
I have seen what is coming and realize I have the opportunity to change some shit. Straight talk within my own head and those I am with. Engage in life fully. Make sure my friends know I love and appreciate them. Ditto with family. Slow down. Don't be too busy for the little stuff, that is the only stuff that matters. I have said this before, but when I was in the hospital waiting for the stroke to do whatever damage it was going to... I guarantee I was not thinking of my stellar work accomplishments or how green my lawn was. It was 100% pure people I love and what I may miss. So now, when my son is telling me about an in-depth lego thing that is enormously detailed and enormously boring, I just listen and watch him and his excitement. When my daughter and I get the guffaws over something, and we are laughing our heads off, and she gets that spark in her eye or tilts her head a certain way to say something clever... I notice. Because, to me, that is all that really counts. I am having a lot of fun these days!
Rose and I watching surfers....don't we look like we are enjoying it? I was noticing skill - Rose was taking note of other things. |